Every now and then, when I have a project I need (or want) to do. I start to get anxiety about it.
Going on to the next step just becomes difficult. I have built it up in my mind to mountainous proportions and I just get scared to start. I just don't want to take that first step.
I need to get started on something, and I just can't get out of The Gate.
Right now, I'm dealing with a few of those.
I have my first quilt all together and basted, ready to quilt. But I'm really hesitant to start. I'm terrified of my walking foot. I'm really worried about how hard it's going to be to handle that much fabric while sewing. I'm just nervous. Logically, I know it won't be too difficult. I may have to utilize my handy-dandy seam ripper, but I really don't think it'll be too bad.
I just can't bring myself to make that first stitch.
I have a short paper due for school (less than a page). I have already written one paper for this class, and it wasn't bad at all. I'm really hesitant to do anything more than plan for this paper, though. I keep opening the word document, then closing it without doing anything.
I just can't bring myself to type that first word.
The worst right now is probably my running. About 2 weeks ago, my schedule got all messed up, then I didn't have an ID to get on base, then I got sick. I'm all better now, have been for a few days. But I still haven't gone out running in the morning yet. I haven't done any strength training at home, either, like I had planned. I think part of it is because I have fallen off the wagon of my training plan. But I need to jump back in. I know it's not hard, I have been running multiple times a week for months now.
I just can't bring myself to get up and take that first step.
I know once I actually force myself to start, it won't be so bad. It never is. I've done this with numerous projects before. It is just built up in my head to epic proportions. Once I get started, I'll be fine and blast right through it.
I just need to get out of The Gate.
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I know how that is. It's like everything is just too much to even want to do. Yet you know you should and will thank yourself later, you loathe the idea of starting it. :) You can do it!
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